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Everything in my life is gone… whether I let them go or I go away from them. Love, friendships, time, rationalism n more.. I don’t feel anything good now.. but I feel sorrow, loneliness are surround me. I lost of my mind in doing things since I lost passion in many things..

Oh God.. I hate this situation actually.. becoz I fell like I’m the person that alive in this world.. I’m standing on my own life only now.. no more other people’s life in me.. I am empty.. only me that comfort myself.. nobody knows wut I have gone thru in this life for these few days.. only jatt knew wut happen 2 me.. but only that I said to her.. no more other things that I told her.. I am all alone in my room.. now my room is my life.. only them know wut really happen to me.. nobody will understand me.. it’s all becoz I don’t wanna understand them n I didn’t let them to understand me.. but… I really want them know the real me.. I just dunno how to tell them.. all these make me empty.. cold.. like winter.. nothing to be proud of.. nothing interested to do.. nothing to share wif other people.. nothing that can make me really happy.. all of nothing..

This sadness always be wif me.. is this my life forever? Life that full of loneliness, sorrow, envy, doom, n others that really bad? If so, just let me die! I feel so envy to those people that can happy always.. while im always in sadness.. sumtimes I’m vice versa to them.. when I’m happy, they r not.. so this will make me sad again.. while I’m sad, they r enjoyable.. n I’m still in sadness.. I live in full of lie.. I pretend to be happy when be around people.. but when I be at my room.. all change.. I become the real me back.. I try to show the real me.. but people like to just let me be that n no asking.. I love people that want to know wut happen to me… but when I see their face like not interested wif the story of my life, so, I just tell them a little bit only.. I hate to be like that..

I just want people that really care about me.. somebody that can comfort me know.. somebody that can wipe my tears.. hurmm… all that just dreams.. don’t dreaming tina! Just die! My heart whispered to me just now..

Now internet also gone.. have been secured by the owner.. it makes me think that I need to leave this world quickly.. it makes me to be cold for future.. it makes me will lost my friends.. It makes me need to gone thru this life alone..

Sorry for everything that I’ve done.. after this I will not topup seldom too.. I also have deleted myspace.. I will seldom on9.. yeah.. life is meaningless now.. so, if don’t hear any news from me, just anggap I already die..